Soon

I got this from the pictures uploaded by my classmate. This was taken during our plant tour in Cagayan de Oro City last October.  We were in the Nestle Cagayan de Oro Factory when my classmate took this picture.

I really have this vision of working inside an industrial plant a year from now. This picture perfectly depicts my current mindset: I'm all eyes on the prize. :)

Timing

A while ago, I was walking towards our house when the electricity broke down. I was a bit frightened because it was really really dark, I was all alone in the street and I couldn't see anything for seconds. But then when I looked up to the sky, I saw the stars. The sky was clear tonight, and the stars were beautiful.  The feeling of fright went away.

I have always wanted to do some star gazing. I thought that it would be better if I am with a friend or a bunch of friends when I do that. But with what I've experienced tonight, I guess it was all worth it seeing the stars all alone.

Meanwhile, I'm having trouble with my online assessment for Proctor and Gamble. I don't know, I feel like this is some sort of a sign.  I'll just wait and see if the problem still persists until tomorrow. If it does, then that's definitely it, a very clear sign.

From the Daily Love:

"You can only become truly accomplished at something you love. Don't make money your goal. Instead, pursue the things you love doing, and then do them so well that people can't take their eyes off you." - Maya Angelou, icon and poet.

"What we really want to do is what we are really meant to do. When we do what we are meant to do, money comes to us, doors open for us, we feel useful, and the work we do feels like play to us." - Julia Cameron, author of 'The Artist's Way'.

It's all about timing. :)

Jump Start

Gym: I have lost the pounds I gained during the Christmas vacation. I really feel good every after sessions, though I really have to suffer muscle pains afterwards. Well, as the saying goes, no pain no gain. :)

FS: Our teacher returned the paper that we've submitted to fulfill the partial requirements of our feasibility study. I was surprised with the score that me and my partner got. It wasn't the score I was expecting because I thought we flunked. Nevertheless I'm really thankful that we passed, just a point from the passing score though (the passing score, btw, is higher than the usual mark). Improve, improve, improve!

P&G: I just had my very first experience of job application last Saturday. Proctor and Gamble visits our school yearly to invite graduating students to join their company.  My classmates and I grabbed the opportunity and attended the career talk and testing.  The test was short yet time-consuming. At the looks of the test paper, I first thought that 65 minutes for a 40-item test was too long. But, lo and behold, the time wasn't really enough. The paragraphs in the English part were too long and a bit confusing that I had to read through them twice before I picked an answer out of the choices. I had high hopes out of my answers in the Problem Solving and Abstract Reasoning parts, but I really got nervous with the over-all result.  The results were available an hour after the exam so I went back to school to find out. I passed! Yey! :) The next step is the online testing and application. I'm halfway through it, I'm just finishing my resume.

The other blog: I've decided to delete my other blog. I just don't want to dwell on sad memories. I took the baby steps and I guess I'm all the way to recovery. Hurray!

Life goes on

Classes resumed today. I felt a bit elated because I got to see my classmates again after two weeks which seemed like forever. It's as if I've never seen them in years. Well, a lot of us sort of changed after the vacation. And you got it right, many of us gained weight! That's something usual in our class especially after long vacations. Of course,'di ako nakakatakas sa pagbabagong 'yan (lol).

As the title says, life goes on. There's still that usual pressure from the teachers, and also ang mga biruan at tuksuhan. The class was just a bit behaved today because the ultimate joker of the class and my happy and gay FS partner were absent. Maybe their absence just brought that feeling of incompleteness in the pack.

I wasn't able to be in the school during the activity period (because I went home early). I wasn't able to feel that rush that I'm always feeling when I'm in school during that time of the day. I'm excited to experience that again this Wednesday.

Life goes on, and I've realized that I never made any specific resolution for this year. I just have a general one: I will break some of my bad habits, bad habits such as staying up late beyond midnight, PROCRASTINATING, consuming unnecessary calories, etc. Parang joke2x lang noh? But I'll try my very best, I'll be taking the little steps.

I will go to the gym tomorrow with my two classmates. Wish me luck!

From The Daily Love:

"I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center." - Kurt Vonnegut, a great American novelist

Sudays with PostSecret

I have this habit of checking PostSecret every Sunday. That site was introduced to me by my best friend when she posted some of the postcards she found in that site to her Multiply account. PostSecret, by the way, is a blog site of Frank Warren. Every Sunday, he posts the postcards he receives (not all of them though) for the week.  These postcards contain the secrets of the people who sent them, ranging from the shallowest to the deepest and darkest secret we as humans could possibly have. Since these contain secrets, the postcards are sent anonymously. Frank Warren hand picks the most striking secrets out of the postcards he receives in a week and posts them to his blog every Sunday.

I've always thought of postcards as means of connecting with your friends and loved ones away from you. PostSecret gave postcards a new identity. These postcards is not just a line of connection between friends and families, postcards are now used to liberate us from the stresses that our secrets bring to our lives. It also brings about a connection among the souls of people who are, in many ways, living beneath the shadows of their secrets. I believe that when you find out that somebody out there also shares the same secret and experiences the same guilt and burden that you have, it brings such comfort and assurance that you are not alone. As for me, as I read through the secrets and realize that I can also relate to some of them, it brings a little feeling of relief. I don't have any plans of sending a postcard though, I'm contented with just checking and reading for the meantime.

I am saving some of the secrets (Mr. Warren, I'm just using them as wallpapers, I'm not in any way, using them to earn money. I am also posting some of them but I always post the website in the credits). So to end this entry, I'm sharing to you one of the secrets posted in the site today to which I can relate with:

c/o PostSecret

New Year, New Blog

2010, finally.

New beginnings for the new year as they say.  I've finally decided to create a "public" blog just to make something good out of my life. I am sharing some of my thoughts here, happy thoughts mostly. I will still be keeping my hidden blog (not really hidden, just unknown) to which I unload those unnecessary and sometimes toxic thoughts I have. I'm planning to delete that blog when the right time comes. I'm still fixing some stuff in my life and I will still be needing that blog until I finally throw away all those negativities out of my system.  Nevertheless, I will not let these setbacks hold me from finding happiness in my life, and I'm sharing every bit of happiness I encounter in my day-to-day experiences (well, only when I feel writing about them).  The main purpose of this blog is to share my happiness with you. Mas masaya kapag marami tayong masaya. Of course, I will only be sharing what's true, ayaw ko namang magbalatkayo or gumawa ng kwento, so my blog is very open to comments. Feel free to react.

To start it off, I spent some quiet time on the last day of 2009. I was in a state of nostalgia thinking about the things that transpired last year. I can truly say that the year 2009 was by far the best year in my whole college life. It was a year full of surprises, opportunities, twists and turns.

Maraming nangyaring maganda sa akin noong nakaraang taon. First in the list is my 2-month On-The-Job Training in Nestle Phil. Inc. CDO Factory which made up the best summer of my life. My wish of getting the Most Outstanding Senior Award for the year was also granted. I had my first serious relationship which gave me the opportunity to truly care about somebody special. I made it again to the Dean's List after 3 years of underachieving. We finally had our plant tour this year in CDO. I had the chance to spend a week in Zamboanga City (gracias Buklod). I got really drunk for the first time (hahaha... I love The Bar! I don't know if it's right to put this in the good events list but panalo talaga ang pakiramdam, nakakatanggal ng sama ng loob). The good Lord never failed in delivering His plans for me.

I also had my fair share of down moments especially during the last quarter of the year when I experienced a lot of changes.  But these did not bring me to tears as I ended the year. I am grateful for having been able to survive each and every one of these trials. I may have lost some things and some people, but with the lessons I've gained from life, 'di na ako masyadong nanghinayang.

I ended the year bringing with me two realizations/lessons: 1. I must learn to love myself because at the end of the day, when people turn their backs at me, I only have myself to depend on. 2. I should always seek for happiness, I should go for those things that will make me truly happy because I've got only one life to live. Well, with these two comes my faith with the Lord that resources and means will always be provided as long as I follow His ways.

Now for 2010, I am setting my eyes on my three goals: serious weight loss, graduation, ChE license.  I already enrolled myself in a gym because I'm too fat already (wahahaha... kaulaw). As for the next two goals, since I've got less things to take care of this year, I just need to do extra work on managing my time right and everything will  hopefully be fine.

A happy me this 2010, that's for sure. :)