Sunday, May 30, 2010

cheers to boredom :|

(came across a blog and found this)

RULES:

- Answer the questions below.
- Take each answer and type it into Google.
- Take a picture from the first page of results and post.
- You can't copy the photos of the person who posted this before you.

1. The age you will be on your next birthday:
9 months to go. :)

2. A place you'd like to travel to:
Venice

3. Your current addiction:
Kasalanan ni Kuya Norman! :))

4. Your favorite food:
Cake, cake, cake!

5. Your favorite animal:
Rabbit :)

6. Your favorite color:
Blue

7. Your current cellphone wallpaper:
Smileys


8. The town in which you live in:

9. Your nickname:
Okay, he's a HE! 

10. Your current desktop wallpaper:
Black, actually. 

11. A bad habit you have:

12. Your worst fear:

13. Your guilty pleasure:

14. First name of a past love:
Not pertaining to a person. I wanted an ordinary life, until high school graduation came and changed my perspective.

15. Name of a past pet:
Panda, our dog.

16. Best friend's nickname:
Nat

17. Your first name:
'Di kasali ang P and U :)

18. Your middle name:
Rosaupan. This picture came from an article that mentions my cousin because he won a chess competition here in Davao City.

19. Your surname:
Coat of arms ba 'to?

20. Your major in college:

Monday, May 24, 2010

i will be the master of my emotions

If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labor.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
Today I will be the master of my emotions.
- Og Mandino 

Saturday, May 22, 2010

wish

There are some wishes that I do not mention one by one when I pray because:

1. I would feel guilty, though I know these wishes aren't bad and harmful, but the guilt comes from that notion that wishing too much is selfishness;
2. I know they're nearly impossible to come true;
3. Some of these wishes aren't really necessities.

Nevertheless, there were some instances in my life that when I actually mentioned them in my prayers, even for the first and only time, they came true. This experience, though, didn't really motivate me to pray for all the wishes because I am praying for more important things. I also think that the right time is yet to come for those wishes to be fulfilled.

I also believe that God would still know about those unmentioned wishes, that's why I always include them in my prayers in a general note and ask Him to give whatever it is that I truly need and to tame and guide my heart for it to become selfless and understanding.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

see everyone halo bright in beauty

I know I promised not to blog about this anymore, but I'll make this an exception.  I am sure I have come to that point of really moving on. I guess things just fell into their rightful places.  I am happy about it, and I really do hope for better days.

I'm creating this entry since I came across this song that perfectly concludes that part of my life. I'm hoping to share this to him, but I just don't know how he'll react to it. Anyway, I'm sharing this song to you. :)


Halo
Kate Havenvik

Who do you love, when love is gone?
Who do you hunger in this great unknown?
Memories of me will fade
And you'll find someone new

See everyone halo bright in beauty
See everyone arrayed for you to try
You're not alone in being alone
Six billion people – one of them's right for you

Who do you mean when you change your tone?
Who do you dream of when you're half asleep with one eye open?
You'll become your life soon
And I won't be in your way

See everyone halo bright in beauty
See everyone arrayed for you to try
You're not alone in being alone
Six billion people - one of them's right for you

Who do you see when you stare into space?
Who do you seek out at night in cyberspace?

See everyone halo bright in beauty
See everyone arrayed for you to try
You're not alone in being alone
Six billion humans - one of them's right for you

Sunday, May 2, 2010

God whispered

Dear Elaine,

Why do you do what you do? Always examine your motives. If you discover that what you're doing doesn't come from love, abandon your course. Stop. And pray for love. Everything you do must come from love. Everything!

I love you,
God

P.S. I've planted great love within you, Elaine. It's there waiting to guide your every step.

Love, love makes the world go 'round. :)

Saturday, May 1, 2010

this morning

It has become my habit this summer vacation to check my Facebook account for updates. Today, I got messages in my inbox and was happy to see a message from my Philosophy teacher, Mr. Nonoy Tomacruz. He sent me a poem and told me it was his graduation gift. I read through it and it made my day. :) Starting my day by reading this poem brought some inspiration: that I should live my life to the fullest. Thank you Sir Nonoy for the poem. :)

The Puppet
Gabriel Garcia-Marquez

If for a moment God would forget that I am a rag doll and give me a scrap of life, possibly I would not say everything that I think,
but I would definitely think everything that I say.

I would value things not for how much they are worth but rather for what they mean.

I would sleep little, dream more.
I know that for each minute that we close our eyes we lose sixty seconds of light.

I would walk when the others loiter; I would awaken when the others sleep.

I would listen when the others speak, and how I would enjoy a good chocolate ice cream.

If God would bestow on me a scrap of life,
I would dress simply, I would throw myself flat under the sun,
exposing not only my body but also my soul.

My God, if I had a heart,
I would write my hatred on ice and wait for the sun to come out.
With a dream of Van Gogh I would paint on the stars a poem by Benedetti,
and a song by Serrat would be my serenade to the moon.

With my tears I would water the roses,
to feel the pain of their thorns and the incarnated kiss of their petals...
My God, if I only had a scrap of life...

I wouldn't let a single day go by without saying to people I love, that I love them.

I would convince each woman or man that they are my favourites and I would live in love with love.

I would prove to the men how mistaken they are in thinking that they no longer fall in love when they grow old
--not knowing that they grow old when they stop falling in love.
To a child I would give wings,
but I would let him learn how to fly by himself.
To the old I would teach that death comes not with old age but with forgetting.
I have learned so much from you men....

I have learned that everybody wants to live at the top of the mountain without realizing that true happiness lies in the way we climb the slope.

I have learned that when a newborn first squeezes his father's finger in his tiny fist, he has caught him forever.

I have learned that a man only has the right to look down on another man when it is to help him to stand up.
I have learned so many things from you,
but in the end most of it will be no use because when they put me inside that suitcase, unfortunately I will be dying.

the beautiful process of falling in love

Nope, I'm not falling in love with a person (yet), but I fell in love with this song. The song simply brings that beautiful (yet agonizing) feeling of waiting and hoping that he/she might feel the same way, that he/she might actually be falling in love with you too. :)


The Fear You Won't Fall
Joshua Radin

Digging a hole
And the walls are cavin' in
Behind me
Air's getting thin
But I'm trying, I'm breathing in
Come find me

It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

I know you're scared that I'll soon be over it
That's part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you
Is the fear you won't fall

It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

And I hate the phone
But I wish you'd call
Thought of being alone
Was better than
Was better than

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
(Can't get my mind off of you)

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you

And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way