Today's one of the worst, I thought about quitting.

If only I could finally digest what I'm feeling and tell you when I have figured it out

If only I could ask you the right questions and you answer them directly

If only we could get a closure

I'm tired, I'm weary

I know I have been able to take myself out of this unrest repeatedly, but I'm getting tired of the loop

What should I do?

There are things in life that we cannot fix. We cannot mend some things that are broken no matter how long and  hard we try.

You had to choose. You can't have both.

I'd like to keep things the way they are now. I don't want you to tell me how guilty you still are, it really doesn't matter. What's done is done. I honestly do not like hearing that you're miserable. You chose (and still choose) to be in that position, I believe I can't save you. 

I'd like to clear up one thing though: I have no intentions of ruining whatever's happening in your life right now. I really don't care at all. 

I had this conversation with a friend about a situation similar to ours. I get my friend's point that you have the right to be happy. Yes, I have nothing against that. You can be happy. I'm giving you my blessing if this is ever necessary. But the point is you have broken something between us, something that is also important, and it's beyond repair.

Let's keep things civil between us. I don't want to be explaining things all over again because what I have told you sums up everything that is true about what I'm feeling. Well, maybe I haven't included this part. Please respect the space, this is the least you can do.

Bakit kelangang ako ang laging lugi? Kelan pa ba ako mananalo?

I had to do it. I'm sorry.